I know I haven't covered the last weeks yet, but don't worry it's all coming in due time. I've been truly busy and exhausted, but now I am up and going again!
It felt like a dream.
It flew by so quickly,
but it was the sweetest dream I've ever seen.
The people, like angels.
The smiles and even tears,
flourished the ground I walked on
and demolished all my fears.
Even when I fell, I fell softly on the clouds.
That is the power of friendship.
The love we scream for so loud.
But how can I leave, how to leave all that behind,
can someone tell me how?
These people, that beautiful green place,
that is my heaven now.
That's my way of starting this post, because in what possible way can I explain how I feel like right now? I guess the answer that comes the closest is poetry, since that's my way of dealing with these emotions, well besides crying.
The last two weeks of my time in Winston Salem flew by. I had the honor of being in a lovely host family ( which I will cover more in later on this week) and spending the last week with my dear BFTF family. We had our final presentations, in a cool location at the Wake Forest Business School, which we had been working on since the beginning. It was livestreamed all around the world to many embassies and families who were watching. One of which was mine.. They messeged me saying how proud they were, which made my day even more memorable than it already was. I felt so proud for all of my 43 fellows, such brilliant, strong minded people, who will most certainly change this world for the better. Actually they already do that just by excisting.
On our last days we were supposed to try S-moores which are apparently divine, but due to the unfortunate storm (and a tornado warning..yeah, a TORNADO warning.) we had to stay indoors. Instead we watched a movie in Carswell (which is the big hall be had each morning assembly, many fascinating lectures but most importantly awesome birthdays in). I had already seen the movie, Hitch, but to watch it with my dear new friends was even better. It was like an international movie gathering, the world comes together in the name of romantic comedies and popcorn. Also food was involved (snacks of many kinds), so I couldn't refuse. Walking back to our dorms that night was magical. The streets were wet and glittering from the rain and the sound of the nature accompanied us, but I felt like the shadow of the departure was already hanging on top of us. Still the joy I felt that night will never vanish from my memories. It was a night spent with family.
The last evening we had a barn dance, which was awesome. We walked to this beautiful barn where we were greeted by all sorts of food (which made me really happy, I love food) and a DJ who eventually got the hang of how things were supposed to go. He didn't quite realize that Europeans like to dance, really dance, not gradually move our way into dancing. Anyways, we ended up dancing the entire night away, there were some crazy moves and loads of laughter. One of the most moving moments during my entire summer was when we danced a slowdance all together in a circle.. That feeling of being united and loved, it's something very powerful and comforting.
After the dance we had the option of staying up the entire night, with no curfiew at all. So, in the midst of packing and writing cards and letters to everyone, we spent our last night together in the yard. Talking, dreaming, being sleepdeprived and groggy but most of all realizing, that the time we've spent together is coming to an end. Under the cloudy sky, I remember thinking to myself, that everything happens for a reason. Although we do create our own destiny by the choises and actions we make, there is always a reason and a consequense for everything. Coming to this program, becoming a family then having to say goodbyes. We came, we grew and learned. We loved, laughed, cried and then we said goodbye. But what comes after that goodbye is something far more greater than the pain of separation or losing pieces of yourself. What comes after is a whole new kind of world, a future filled with potential, filled with journies arond the world, filled with rescpect for each moment, because now you know how much those moments mean to you once they've gone away. The biggest thing I learned was to truly live every moment of life and not wait for tomorrow, but create tomorrow.
And I will create my tomorrow, with the 43 new sisters and brothers I have, and all the people who have been and will be a part of my life. I will create tomorrow with myself, because now I realize how powerful I am, how much potential I have. I have changed. But I also change everyday with each new person I meet and new place I see. So the me today is not the me tomorrow, but I can influence who I want to be, and that person is someone like all the 43 in my new family.
All my life I've been dreaming,
and this summer made me finally wake up and realize,
that dreams are reality.
Thank you everyone who were a part of this amazing experience.
With love,
A
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